February 15, 2013

quick update

Wednesday will definitely go down as being one of the toughest days of my life!  Nothing could ever prepare my mother's heart for that moment when I picked my daughter up from her bed and knew instantly that something was desperately wrong.

It was one of those heart-stopping moments when you know you have to muster every ounce of courage to hold it together and get to the hospital as soon as possible.

But inside I was falling apart. After everything Hasya has been through already, it felt like too much.

How can I ever thank you all enough for your prayers for our daughter?  I know God has heard every prayer whispered on her behalf. I am so thankful to my dear friend, Elizabeth, for updating you all.  I know that her medical knowledge is so helpful in knowing exactly how to pray.  What a blessing she has been to me!

As Elizabeth shared with you, we have a very long road ahead in getting Hasya's bones stronger.  They are so painfully frail and weak.  We are looking into all of our options as ways to build her bone mass. This has become a priority! I am so thankful that we are surrounded by exceptionally knowledgeable people to guide us in getting our sweet angel to a place of healing and wholeness.

I totally ache wondering how many other spontaneous fractures she has had over the years. Oh my goodness!  She is such a fighter, this tiny love.  I have so much to learn from my daughter.

And so we journey forward.  Hasya's body needs time to heal and get stronger.  It is going to take time. Lots and lots of time.

We're trusting God with everything we have that all things will be restored to Hasya.  We pray that the road to her healing will be become easier and easier for her.  Seeing her suffer in this way is excruciating! 

God has been reminding me of a truth He placed in my heart so very long ago--one I tend to forget when the storms of life blow my way.  He never said the journey would be easy!  The Father never said that obedience ensures us a road which is without trial and pain.  No, He promised us that trials would come and that the road would become difficult--almost more than our human hearts can bear (James 1).

But at the same time, He also promises us that He will never leave us nor forsake us--that He will hold us tenderly when life hurts and situations feel like they will rip our hearts out (Hebrews 13).

And just as the Father held our beautiful little girl so tightly for all those years as she lay in her crib, so He holds her so closely to Himself in these difficult days too.

And that is good enough for me in this season.

We finally have Hasya's pain under control and she is resting easier.  Praise God!  What a beautiful GIFT this little lovie is to our family.

I appreciate you all so very much!  Your love and support has been a blessing to me as we journey toward getting our sweet treasure healthy.  From the bottom of my heart, thank you!

Even this shall be for His glory!

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