choosing to trust

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How can I ever thank you all enough for the many prayers that have been brought before the Lord on behalf of our sweet embryos today?  My heart is overwhelmed with gratitude. It's been quite a day.  Emotional.  Painful. Weepy. Joyous. Sadly, three of our babies were just not strong enough to survive the thaw.  As much as I was expecting it, and my heart was prepared for it, it hurts so bad. … [Read more...]

transfer day

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Sorry, a little emotional today. As Anthony and my precious friend Deb both reminded me this morning... THIS is the day that the LORD has made.  I will matter the outcome. THANK YOU for praying! … [Read more...]

almost there, my tiniest loves

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After a very tearful goodbye, I left my family this morning and flew out of state.  As I sit snuggled up in my hotel room tonight, I miss them so much already.  SO much!  I cannot help but thank God for the amazing children He has given us and the husband He has blessed me with.  What an incredible man after God's own heart the Father has given me to share this life with!  A man who loves his God … [Read more...]

the home stretch

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As many of you know, we're partnering with our friends at Snowflake® to create more of an awareness about embryo adoption.  Part of that has been making a series of videos, Facebook posts and blog posts journalling our adoption journey. Today I'll share a few more questions we get asked and some other thoughts.  I cannot believe that in just five days I will get to see the first pictures of our … [Read more...]

six days away

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Anthony shares: Six days away. So many thoughts racing through my mind. Will one survive? Will two survive? What about three? Four?? What if all four survive the thaw? How many will then take? One? Two?... In a short time, we will know the answers to these questions. But there’s one more question I’ve often asked myself—what if NONE survive? What will this journey have been … [Read more...]

worth it


A few years ago I journeyed with one of my dearest friends through the loss of her baby. Janine's precious baby boy was diagnosed as being "incompatible with life" in the womb.  It was inspiring and humbling to watch her family embrace their loss and their pain with such grace and courage--while clinging to their God who's glory shines so brightly in the valley of the shadow of death. I had never … [Read more...]

tiniest treasure update


I thought I would give you all a quick update on our embryo adoption.  But before I go there, let me quickly address something that seems to have people very concerned.  We do appreciate that so many of you care about our tiniest blessings. My inbox is filled with messages saying, "Did I miss something?  Have you cancelled your embryo adoption?"  And even, "How can you just abandon your … [Read more...]


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There seriously just are no words to express our gratitude for the love and support that so many of you have poured out upon us since we made our big announcement.  We are truly humbled and so very thankful. God has blessed us with the most incredible friends and support.  Over the last 48 hours, I have received so many texts and e-mails asking us, "How can we help?"  "What can we do to get you … [Read more...]