Oh what a glorious day yesterday was. I got to meet the sweetest, most adorable little girl. I met her mommy through my blog. They actually live in our area.
They came and spent the afternoon with us. I just knew God had a purpose in it. Doesn’t He always?
He knew it would be good for my heart.
Baby M is almost one. Such a teeny, tiny little angel. She is pure joy.
This little treasure has Down syndrome. Would you believe that she is the youngest child with Down syndrome I have ever had the privilege of meeting?
I confess, recently I have been sharing my fears with my hubby. I have shared my deepest fears-and my heavenly hopes with my love. I have questioned my ability to raise Hailee and Harper. I have doubted myself and wondered if I can even do this. Fear is such a miserable thing. Over the last few days Anthony has reassured me time and time again, constantly pointing me back to the ONE who has called us.
It’s just one of those things that I know in my heart to be truth…but hearing it from Anthony is so reassuring.
I love that man so much!
Don’t get me wrong, I am so incredibly excited to be adding these two angels to our family. I feel so blessed that the Lord has chosen us to be their family. I constantly wonder what we ever did to deserve such a HUGE blessing. But, there are times when I allow fear to creep into those places in my heart where I feel vulnerable. Those places where I feel like there is no way I can ever be a good mommy to Hailee and Harper. The enemy sure does know our weaknesses, doesn’t he?
Yesterday was such divine confirmation from the Father. He brought that precious little girl into my home to show me that I CAN do this! As I cuddled her, I felt such a reassurance…an incredible sense of knowing that I know that this IS the path He has chosen for us. I felt such peace. Every fear, every insecurity was gone. Absolutely gone.
Oh my goodness, friends, today I have such an excitement in my heart. I absolutely cannot wait to bring our sweet girls home.
Thank you, Lisa, for spending the afternoon with us…and for sharing your angel with me. At her tender age, God is already using her. He showed me through your daughter that I CAN do this….and it will be good. No, it will be amazing.
His goodness overwhelms me.
My arms are aching to hold them tight.
I know that there will still be those moments of fear. I’m human, and I allow the enemy access to places in my heart where he should not be allowed. But I can honestly say that no matter what may lie ahead of us as we adopt these two children, it is going to be okay-because my God said so.
Hallelujah!
Thank you to all of you who took time to share your diaper recommendations with me. It was so lovely to meet a few new friends too.
I have started going through some of the websites you shared with me-it’s going to take some time. I am so grateful for the advice and tips regarding using cloth diapers.
Many think I’m totally nuts to be considering this with my two little angles. If I stop and ponder it a little too long, I put myself in that category too. But this is something I do need to at least give a shot. If it works, great. If not, then at least I know I tried.
Love you all.
Adeye,
Diapers- we use cloth diapers….most of the time.:) We also use Bum Genius (as someone else mentioned) and have a love/hate relationship with them. First, they were all FREE for us since Markana blessed us with them. They are super easy to clean, but you MUST hang them to dry. Maybe not “must” but I highly recommend it for absorbancy purposes (this is probably true for most diapers although it’s not advertised that way). I simply hang them in our laundry room from a hanger that holds several pairs of pants from clips (maybe $2-$3 at Target) overnight, and they are dry by the next morning. I also make our laundry detergant and it works wonders on cloth diapers.
One negative about Bum Genius, you have to stay on top of changing them. Not that our sweetie is at all neglected, but he must be changed every hour or hour and a 1/2. Period. Or they will leak.
Markana had this same problem.
I’ve heard mixed reviews about this particular brand, but we’ll stick with them because we have them.:) When we go out, it’s Pampers all the way. I don’t want to spend most of my time away from home in the ladies room changing wet clothes.
Let me know if you have any questions. I’ve also heard rave reviews about some other brands if you’d like to know more about them.
Praying your sweeties home!!
In Him,
E
Adeye, you know I totally understand the combination of fear and excitement. May God give you His peace through these challenging times.
He has called you to great things and I look forward to seeing how He will continue to use your obedience not only to affect the lives of Hailee and Harper but MANY MANY others who are watching you live your faith.
I continue to pray for you all.
Michelle
God knew thousands of years ago at Creation that you would be the mommy of these two angels. And He knew you could do it through His strength. I don’t know how people take on challenges without the Lord. And isn’t it amazing how He uses even the tiniest child to help us in our journey??
We all let fear seep into those places we shouldn’t let Satan even get his big toe in!!! Thanks for your honesty. Even those of us Moms who birthed a child with Ds have days where we are “fearful” about how we’re going to be able to parent this unique child. But then God gives the exact measure of grace needed for that particular day and we once again realize that we’re partnering with God and not out here on our own. Praise God!!!
Love ya,Kristin
So neat to hear that God sent you a hug in the form of this baby girl. Amazing that He knows and cares about and responds to our concerns in such tangible ways. He has your back, Adeye. He trusts you with His girls. My prayer is that a year from now you will look back and wonder what all the fuss (in your heart) was about. Praying for your courage.
Lisa
How wonderful to spend the day with a new friend and her daughter! It feels so good to put fear aside and allow excitement and comfort to creep back in! Hubby’s are so comforting- I love the confidence they have in us!
You will do a wonderful job with your new daughters! God has guided you this far and will not leave your side!
Fear is natural in all things parenting to be honest. :o) And that devil sure does look for the chinks in our armor of God doesn’t he? Dern him.
Praise the Lord that He sent you the gift of that sweet baby girl.
I love watching God work in your life. Can’t wait to watch Him do so much more.
Praying for you!
Thank you Father for this divine confirmation in my friend’s life!
You are so good to us!
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What a sweet confirmation that the Lord brought to you! By His grace, you can do what He has put in your heart to do! Just remember that is the only way! On your own, without Him, the road would probably overwhelm you completely. But leaning upon His strength enables you to do what you can not do on your own.
Adeye,
You are a wonderful inspiration!
-Nicole
http://www.bakerssweets.blogspot.com
what a blessing… times of fellowship, enjoying anothers angel and God gently speaking to your heart. I can’t wait to see you with your girls and all together as a family!
Blessings,
Gayly
So now that they’re home are you cloth diapering them? I clothed for 6 months with our 3rd boy and partly with our 2nd. I WISH I would have really started thinking about it when our oldest was born.
*Tammy (RR)