Those of you who have adopted before will know the fact that there is a golden rule for those of us who blog publicly, advocate for children, or even for adoption agencies-we have to let our words be few. We have to use extreme caution when it comes to the things that go out into the world from places like this, my little blog.
Here I am, holding back, and it is hard for me. I’m not good at holding back. As I wait for things to become finalized here I cannot jeopardize anything at all. I must use absolute wisdom. Just so you understand. Once everything is said and done, well, then things can change a bit and I can be a little more open again.
Thank you to each and every one of you who have offered encouragement, prayer, songs, scripture, and everything else. I was blown away reading ALL your words of love and wisdom. I’m still making my way through all the e-mails. I can tell you that you all get it, you really do. You understand that my almost five year old, sixteen pound daughter needs out. Soon.
Sometimes a picture, like the one of Hailee I posted yesterday, IS worth a thousand words.
Never in my life, and even in all our time on the mission field, have I experienced anything like this journey. To say that it has changed my life is an understatement. It has turned my world upside down. I will never be the same again. The things I have seen will be etched in my memory forever-they will be my constant reminder that I will fight for the children who get left behind until the day that I die. I will try, as best as I can, to be a voice for the fatherless until Jesus comes to take me home. God knows how desperately these precious treasures NEED voices out there. Here, they have none.
Thursday is the day! I will finally, after all these weeks, go before the judge in court. Finally. What a journey it has been to get to this point. For those of you unfamiliar with the adoption process in this country, usually after court there is a ten day waiting period. In some regions the judge will waiver that period, in others not. In this region I’m in it can go either way, depending on the judge assigned to each case.
For weeks I have been told that there is absolutely no way the judge will consider it for me. At one point we were told he was “thinking” about it-then the whole Russian thing happened with the little boy and I was told “definitely not”. I lost all hope for a little while. Then, one day it hit me like a ton of bricks-if I’m going to lead the faith-filled life that God has called me too, then I need to step out and trust Him with reckless abandon, come what may. No matter how many times I hear those words, “It is impossible.” Impossible situations give God an opportunity to show His GLORY, right?
Yes, they sure do.
If the God I serve is the God of the Bible (and I know He is), then His miracles never cease. If He can part the waters and raise people from the dead, heck, he can give me a miracle for my daughters. The great I Am-the One who never changes.
I had to dig deep in my faith, friends. I am tired and weary from being here, and being alone. I am weary of the battle that continues to rage. Events from the last few days have left me feeling depleted. And, I never imagined I would still be sitting here waiting for my court appointment. Enough already!
I am rising up with renewed boldness, clothed in the full armor of God. I am going into that court appointment on Thursday morning trusting my God in heaven for a miracle. Trusting Him that He WILL soften the judge’s heart and that the guy will grant me the waiver I so desperately want, and more importantly that Hailee so desperately needs.
If the judge does waiver the waiting period, Hailee and Harper will come out of the orphanage as early as THIS Friday and we would head home hopefully by the end of next week.
If he does not, well, then we still have a long way to go on this journey. May is filled with public holidays here…which means even more delays. The soonest Hailee and Harper will be able to get out of the orphanage is May 6. And we would only go home mid-May. Oh my goodness. That feels like forever, especially since I left home on March 28.
I absolutely have to trust my God in this. Any of you who have journeyed with me for a while know that the Father has been so incredible with this adoption. He truly has moved heaven and earth on Hailee and Harper’s behalf. I know that the Almighty holds the hearts of kings in His hands, and that moving on the heart of this one judge is nothing for Him. Absolutely nothing. I trust Him with all my heart and soul, with everything that is within me-and so I’ll trust Him in this too. No matter what happens. No matter which way things turn out. He is for me and our girls in every way and He’ll see us through to the other side.
I remembered a quote from a book that a friend e-mailed me just before I left home.
“Preparing her heart to stand before the judge, she remembered that it was God’s job to guard the paths of justice; her job was to follow His lead. She knew that truth & justice were the works of His hands. God is in control.”
Truth and justice are the works of His hands! He IS in control. This is HIS battle, and I’ll follow His lead, knowing with all my heart that He works out all things to the good of those who love Him.
Anthony and I feel so blessed that so many people are praying-trusting God for great favor and a sweet victory on Thursday. Thank you for standing with us and, in faith, trusting that this mountain WILL move and that I can get the girls OUT on Friday. Oh how glorious that would be. I cannot even begin to tell you. To bring them here, finally be able to give them a bath, wash their hair, put on new clothes and love and cuddle for hours without having to say goodbye. That would surely be heaven on earth right now.
Thank you, dear friends of a Mighty God, thank you for praying that every obstacle that stands before me will simply disappear. Thank you for trusting that the hearts of those who will make decisions on Thursday are beginning to soften, even now. Thank you for praying that God would give me the words to speak. Thank you for praying for great favor…even from a man who was very unsure about me adopting these girls right from the start.
And thank you for praying that His hand of protection would be upon my girls as they wait.
Thank you for being part of Hailee and Harper’s unfolding story.
My God is ABLE!
He defends the cause of the fatherless.
Deut 10:18
You have more faith than me right now my friend. :(. A beautiful post… It soothed my breaking heart. Still praying for you and your family, Hailee and Harper included in that of course!
Praying mountains are moved and when Friday comes around, you will be joined by those little ones who need you so much. God bless, Jennifer
Praying that God will get the 10 days waived. If it is not in His plan thats ok. Praying for a quick court appearance and everything to go very smoothly. Praying for healthy baby girls. Praying for strength. Be blessed.
You said it all so well, what else can I add? But from the beginning, honestly, I have had a sense that God will be waiving that 10 day wait. I could be wrong….but it’s just a sense I have had since the beginning. I will be standing firm with you in prayer. And my own adoption story has taught me to PRAY BOLDLY NO MATTER HOW IMPOSSIBLE IT SEEMS! PRAY BOLDLY, SISTER!
I’m praying that God’s love and strength will be wrapped tightly around you and your girls, that he will carry you through this and that he will hold his protecting hands over you, especially over Hailee.
It’s wonderful that you finally have a date for court. I’m very relieved for you.
God shall walk before you,
God shall walk behind you,
God shall walk below you,
God shall walk above you.
God shall be, wherever you walk.
God shall be in the height,
God shall be in the depth,
God shall be in the light,
God shall be in the shadow.
God shall hold you in His arm
and come to help you.
Dear Heavenly Father, please move the judge’s heart to waive the 10 day waiting period so Adeye can take her girls out of there Friday. Praying fervently, dear friend!!
I am usually a silent reader, but I just had to write and let you know we are praying for you. We have 6 children two adopted several years ago from Russia. I know it can be a grueling process in a foreigm country and enviroment. Hold on tight to the Father above, he will wrap you in his arms just like your wrap your arms around your darling dtrs.
praying boldly with you. I stumbled upon your blog as I was searching about special needs adoptions - something I feel the Lord’s put strongly on my heart. May the Lord give you and your family strength and may He open the doors wide for you and the girls to return home QUICKLY!
Praying with you for favor from the judge and that the 10 day waiting period may be waved!!
GOD IS MORE THAN ABLE TO DO ABOVE AND BEYOND ANYTHING WE CAN IMAGINE!!!
Oh Adeye,
Tears are flowing as I’m reading this. I’m so inspired by your strength and readiness to stand up and fight for the least of these, I believe God will bless your faithfulness, and I, we, all know who will be fighting in your defense, our almighty Savior Jesus!
I’m praying knowing that God will move this mountain!
Adeye,
I was one of those commenters who had asked you about her - So I was relieved to find out that you weren’t offended by my very personal questions and it amused me that the comments caught your husbands attention too. At least I wasn’t altogether 
Glad to see they are accommodating her girliness now!
I have been out of town for over a week with no access to the computer and you were on my mind so much. I could not wait to get back home and check the blog to see what had transpired in the last week! So now I am all caught up.
I had to laugh at the post about dear little Hailee finally getting dressed in girly colors.
crazy…
As I was rocking my sweet Mylie to sleep at nap time, I was praying for you and the girls. You are right! Our God is ABLE and I am praying that He will still move the mountain of that waiting period. The heart of the king (or in this case, judge) is in the hand of the LORD. He can turn it if He wills.
I am also praying that He will send His angels to guard you and to comfort you in your loneliness. I can’t imagine the loneliness that you must feel. I don’t mean this in some weird “out-there” way, but I am praying that you will feel His presence and that you will be able to commune with Him as with a Friend. He is the Friend that sticketh closer than a brother.
SOON you will be home with your family and friends with your two sweet girls. And though the time seems to drag ever so slowly now, eventually you will look back and these eternal weeks will be a small drip in the bucket of time you have with them.
You, your family in the States, and Hailee and Harper are being upheld in prayer by many people who are growing to love these girls through your blog.
I am only one in an ARMY of prayer warriors!
Amen! And Amen! My children are now so invested in this process and are praying for a miracle this Thursday. We may just have to get up at 3am to find out the final answer!
So good to hear you rising up on wings of eagles! Continued prayers for your strength are being sent your way!!!
He is MORE than able!
Kristin
Praying with you!! Praying that “Now all glory to God who is able, through HIS mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think.” Eph 3:20
Hang in there sweet friend!
Andrea
I can not put to words how your life’s story has affected me-I was face down praying for you yesterday,pouring my tears and heart out to our amazing God- as I am sure many of your friends were. We know this is all for His glory-He is still the God of Miracles-Ephesians 13:8-He is in control and I praise Him for holding you up thru this!! {I’m Kris F’s sister
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Praying those girls go “home” with you on FRIDAY!!!
Thinking and praying for you. I can’t even begin to imagine what you are experiencing. Extra (((hugs)))
Through tears of awe, I see a true Christian and a bold child of the King! My love and prayers are with you!
all those feelings. all those things you feel you can not say. write them down. on paper. or in word and save it to your hard drive. this is a difficult journey but when you are done you will look back and try to remember all those things you wanted to say. all those feelings you wanted to talk about. all those words you couldnt use. and they will be gone. write them down somewhere. Also if you write it all down now, before you forget or get busy in the day to day lives of your girls you will have that later when you want to share with them the journey you made to bring them home. There is so much more to adoption and picking up a kid and taking them home. My goodness the emotions are MANY! The thoughts run wild! The culture shock is enough to drive you mad! hang in there. you will be home soon!
Your words are so filled with love - love shines over your weariness, it empowers you, it gives you wisdom at such a trying time. Praying for sweet blessings to lift your spirit, and huge miracles to bring you home. And thanking God that you heard Him and are there to bring home your children.
Amen, and Amen praying and agreeing with you. let no words be spoken by the judge that are not positive and are what makes these children be with their momma sooner!!!…Amen!
Onward Christian soilder!!! Lifting you all up in mighty prayers. Our God IS able. May this part of your journey soon come to an end. Blessings, alysha
Adeye,
It was good to talk to you briefly this morning. You sure are a ray of sunlight in the midst of a stormy time. Your perspective is true and courageous. I am still praying that the Lord will make the road will rise up to meet you. We all know He is more than able.
His name is Faithful and True and we just need the faith of a mustard seed, right? He has a plan in every detour. I really think you are there because the people around you need to see God’s hands and feet. You may be the only light that ever shines thier way.
Lisa
Dearest Adaye, I too am praying, I too have faith in he who can move mountains. But, if He chooses to make you wait, will you still be able to take the girls out of there? Or will they have to wait in the orphanage? Why would the judge not waive the waiting period? Surely he knows that you have been waiting already. I don’t know much about adopting from that country but it seems that the facility staff can see that you love these girls. Can anyone advocate fir you? Do the girls have to stay in the facility? Can’t they wait with you? There is so much I don’t understand. I’m praying with all my might though. My heart aches for all those sweet babies. Yours and the ones who will never find their mamas and daddys. I’m on my knees. Love morgen
praying for you and your girls dear friend.
BEAUTIFUL!
AMEN AMEN AMEN!
Standing at the feet of our Lord on all of your behalf - knowing greater things are coming!
Love you!
Jill
Hi there!
I was doing my bible study tonight and two verses stood out to me and made me think of you.
Psalm 34:18 The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
And Matthew 5:3 Blessed are the poor in spirit,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
I really liked The Message version of that last verse,
“You’re blessed when you’re at the end of your rope. With less of you there is more of God and his rule”. Less of you and More of God! I like that! I pray for more of God for you! That you will be feel His presence more than ever in the next few days!
Kiss those darlings from me
Adeye…sweet friend. I will absolutely pray hard for that waiver. I believe you will get it. Sorry I have been AWOL this week. No time to get online while we were on our Make A Wish trip. But you have not been far from my mind and I will continue to lift you up every time the Spirit brings you to my mind. I am so blessed by your journey of faith and cannot wait to see what God will do. Sweet Hailee…oh my heart hurt to see the photo you posted yesterday. And I missed the post that you took down, so I’m not sure what happened. Be strong and courageous…the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.
Praying, praying, praying Adeye!!
PRAYING!!! Happy to know Thursday is the day…mountain moving day!!
Praying He impressing on the judges heart the need to waive the ten days right now and that He will not stop. God holds the hearts of rulers in His hand. Nothing is too hard for Him!!
Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen. Eph. 3:20-21
Our God reigns!!!!!! Trusting and praying with you that His will will be done.
Adeye, you are such a lesson to me in Faithfulness. God is a God who can move mountains! I am praying for you and your precious daughters. I just look at the pics of there beautiful faces and know the God is at work here in a big way. Love Janelle
I wrote a post and asked my Bloggy Friends to pray for you tonight.
Lifting you up to Our Father in heaven.
Praying for a miracle with the judge on Thursday.
Laurel
We will be thinking of you, praying for you tomorrow as we are each day!! You have faith and friends to hold you up…you will be a warrior for your beautiful girls tomorrow…and they will be with you soon to love and to hold in your arms endlessly.
Stay strong, Adeye, you are getting so close!
There’s little more that can be said after your Witness to the Faith….we’ll keep you in our hearts!
hugs - aus and co.
He is MORE than able! Praying such miracles occur that the judges and those involved SEE God’s hand!
Oh, for those girls to get out with you! Praying STEADILY!
Praising Him for your renewed strength!
Adeye, I’m praying for your miracle! God has moved bigger mountains before!
Consider yourself hugged too!
Tammy
Adeye~
Psa 66:19-20!!!!!
Love you!
I am praying without ceasing for you and your pathways to bring those baby girls home sooner than later. Get ready! You are about to be a mommy of 7 physically as well as in your heart!! They are coming home!!! Be empowered by His grace!!
Continuing to pray you & your girls home, Adeye! Praying for the fiercest of angels to be encamped in every corner of the building that your hearing will take place in!
Big, big hugs ~ Dardi
I am praying that you the 10 day waiting period will be waived especially since you have been there for so long.
Also praying for the girls to stay healthy and do fine on the trip home.
I would not change a lot of stuff with either on of them until you actually see a Pediatrician at Home. Some things need to be weaned slowly. (I think you know what I am saying.)
Love,
Sheila
OH my gosh I have been praying my heart out for you and your precious girls. The other night I could hardly sleep for praying! I just started following your blog at the urging of my sister who has adopted several times. Every morning we get up and call each other to discuss your latest blog. Hope that doesn’t sound creepy! I have to say it does. But we talk about how you inspire us, and lead us closer to the Lord by seeing all you do. OH Jesus, please save these girls now. I just know our God is able and so look forward to seeing His hand move. I just looked back at your older blogs to catch up, and you need to do that too! You can see the hand of God as his plan unfolds for you and this blog . ( check march 14 The blues) You do have a purpose in this blog, and I am some small part of it. Thanks for sharing and leading us to see our father move in your life through your blog. He is being glorified~