October 31, 2010

this thankful heart

Oh, I have so much to update you on.  We've had a busy and very blessed weekend. 

I started working on a long catch up post--until I came to this picture. It made my heart stand still tonight.  Isn't it amazing how one photo can express everything that is in your heart.

Love.

Gratitude.

Thankfulness.



Two hearts knit together by the love of a child on the other side of the world.

Today I made a precious friend. She will always have a piece of my heart...because she's adopting a piece of my heart. A little girl who, at one time, I thought no one would ever go for.  A little angel who I came to love with all my heart--and many of you have too.

Nothing is impossible for God, is it?

Today we met the Schwenzer family. They are Julia's family.

I can tell you one thing for sure, sweet friends...of all the many people who inquired about Julia and the possibility of adopting her, God knew the ONE family who He would choose to GO.  These people love Julia with a passion.  They are longing to bring her home.  Longing with all their hearts. 

Today we sat and listened as Steve and Carey shared their hearts with their church family.  We shed tears with them.  We prayed together.  And we trusted that the Lord would make the path before them straight. 

We know with all our hearts that He will.

Sweet Julia, you are loved more than words can say.  You are so wanted.  You are so needed.  You are cherished beyond description.  Today I saw with my own eyes how many people are praying you all the way home, sweet girl.  You have no idea...the love, the hugs, the cuddles, the acceptance...it's all waiting for you.  Keep fighting your fight. Please keep fighting!  Soon you will be wrapped tightly in the arms that are longing to hold you, and never let you go.  How thankful I am that I too will get to cuddle you--not through the bars of a crib, but actually holding you in my arms this time.  I can hardly wait for that day.

With a heart of thankfulness for our God who cares so deeply about the things we care about. 

We love you, Schwenzers.  Thank you for loving Julia.

October 28, 2010

my view today

Is simply glorious.

This is the day the LORD has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it.
Psalm 118:24






















Life just does not get sweeter than this.

Treasuring the memories.

October 27, 2010

finally...

It only took five and a half months to make it happen.

We're just a little slow.  Or busy.  Or something like that.

But here it is.  Finally.

The very first photo with all nine of us together.



Better late than never.

Not too bad--all eyes open except for one little angel.  That's a sweet victory when you have seven children.

I love, love, love my family.  How blessed I am.

Thanks for the pic, beautiful Catey.

October 26, 2010

these days

~~  We've been working hard on our school work.

~~  I've been loving the beautiful fall weather we're having.  I do LOVE fall on the east coast.

~~  Rejoicing that very soon Wade and Yuri (Bohdi) will have a family.  Oh my goodness, their family is so close.  I can hardly wait to see two more children out of Hailee's room in the orphanage.  Hallelujah.

~~  Dejunking.  I've been driving around for two weeks with a boot (aka a trunk) full of stuff.  Dropping it off is somehow never a priority. 

~~  I've been having my heart changed from the inside out by some of the incredible books we've been reading.

~~  So thankful for my husband and that the Lord has blessed us with a happy marriage. I am so grateful for a man who chooses to see the best in me, and looks past all my flaws and many imperfections.  I found a treasure, that's for sure.

~~  Seeking God on how to live a purposeful life--forgetting the things that are so darn trivial in this life and only focusing on what truly matters to Him. 

~~  Pondering how we as the Church tend to water down the Gospel.  Believing what the Bible says and appropriating it in my life is serious business--not to be taken lightly.  I never want to forget that.

~~  Love thy neighbor.  Love thy neighbor.  Love thy neighbor.  Even when they don't love us back.

~~  Desiring to have such a hunger for God's Word.

~~  Trying to find contentment in a small house for our large family.  When I feel so cramped, all I need to do is think about the mama in Uganda who lives [happily] in one room with her six children, and everything falls into perspective.  I am blessed indeed.

~~  I've been heart sore at how some people feel that it is their right and responsibility to rip bloggers (not me) to shreds.  I just don't get mean people.  Do they seriously have nothing better to do with their days?

~~ Trusting the Lord to lead and guide our steps as we seek His will regarding our future.  We don't want to run ahead of Him, but neither do we want fear or our own desires to stand in the way of fulfilling His plans and purposes for our lives.

~~  Looking so forward to skyping with my family in South Africa.  Oh how I miss them.

~~  Wondering how in the world the pantry gets empty so fast.  Where does all the food go?

~~  Dreaming about starting a vegetable garden.  I am the worlds worst gardener.  I never inherited my mothers green thumb.

~~  Loving vision forum and wanting to buy a whole lot of their books.

~~  Thinking that I really do need to give my lonely facebook a bit more attention.  I pretty much accept people's invitations to be friends, and that's where it ends.  I'll get to you eventually, lonely facebook.

~~  Wondering if I will ever step into 2010 and upgrade my cell phone to the kind that you can get online with.  I'm still so like 1999.

~~  I hate Halloween!

~~  Love, love, loving my beautiful blue eyed boy.  My angel with a heart of gold.  Don't tell him I said he was beautiful...that's a no-no for a big boy growing up. 



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Mark and Melanie...randon.org selected you as the winner of the $45 gift certificate from CSN stores.  Congrats.  Please contact me at [email protected] so that I can get your details.


October 24, 2010

finding a way to help

So, I have been wondering how in the world to write this post. 

You see, I'm a people pleaser.  {Gulp}  Yes, it's true.  I hate hurting people's feelings, and I probably care way more than I should about what people think.  I am getting better, but I'm still not quite there with this stuff yet.  I am one big work in progress. 

Since so many of you helped me to raise the $20,000.00 ransom for Julia's adoption, my inbox has been ridiculously flooded.  It seems that some people think that I have some kind of gift in raising money.  Which I absolutely do not.  Please know that.  I am the worst when it comes to asking for money.  It literally makes me break out in a sweat.  My heart starts racing and my hands get sweaty.  Asking for anything is definitely not my thing. 

Truth be told--I actually did very little to fundraise for Julia.  The only explanation I can give you as to how that huge amount of money was raised in five days is, well, GOD!  He chose to do it for His glory--it's just as simple as that.  It had nothing to do with me.  I was merely the one who had met sweet Julia and knew the urgency of her situation.

Literally more than a hundred people have written to me asking for help.  Can I host a fundraiser for their adoption/ministry or whatever the need is?  Can I mention their blog on my blog to send my readers there?   

Oh my goodness, friends.  I have agonized over what to do for the last few weeks. I have received so very many requests for help.  Everything in me longs to help every person who has emailed me for fundraising assistance.  I wish there was an easy solution to raising money to bring children home.  But unfortunately there is not.  God chooses to bring funds in for families in different ways.  What I do know from experience is that it takes hard work and perseverance.  We laughed when the money came flooding in for Julia.  All of our own adoptions took months and months to fundraise what we needed.  God just chose to do it differently for Julia...not because of anything I did or said.

I have prayed about what the right thing is to do on my blog.  Because this is my family blog, not just a place to share about adoption, I have really sought God on what to do about the tons of requests I have received for help in the area of fundraising.  I know that if all I ever did was ask for money, or talk about families raising money, well, I would simply have no readers.  No one wants to constantly be asked for money.  I know I don't. People come here for different reasons--some for adoption, some to read about our children, some are interested in special needs, some just lurk, and others are just curious...I guess. Truthfully, I have no idea why in the world anyone would want to keep coming back here.  It blows my mind because I am so not a good writer or a good photographer.

Truthfully, I have struggled to find the balance in all of this.  My heart longs to help everyone who has reached out to me for help.  But I am just a mom with a blog.  There is only so much that I am capable of doing in the small amount of time that I have.  If I had more hours in my day I would start a whole new blog dedicated specifically to fundraising.  But I can't do that in this season.  My calling right now is to be mommy to my seven and wife to my hubby.  Everything else must come second.  Of that I am absolutely positive.

I think that I have come up with some kind of a solution though.  I am busy compiling a stand alone page that will be on my sidebar.  It will say "Fundraising Families."  On that page I will list all the families I know who are in the process of raising the ransom for their children to come home.  It will be a page that I update regularly.  It will be easy for readers to find. The stand alone page on the sidebar will contain families' information with a link to their blogs.  That way people interested in helping a family raise money can just go the sidebar page and scroll through the different families I have listed.  I will highlight camera giveaways, iPad giveaways...or whatever big things families are currently hosting.  Does that make sense?

I am praying that it will be a good solution to help many of you out.  Trust me, I know how great the need is.  I know how hard the fundraising journey can be. Most of the time it is not fun at all. Been there, done that...four times.  We raised every dollar we needed to bring our children home.  It took many hours of hard work.  But together with the Lord, it is so absolutely possible. 

If you are a family who is in the process of fundraising, and you would like me to include you on my sidebar, please send me an email with your details.  Please type "FUNDRAISING FAMILY" in the subject so that I know to look out for your email.  Be sure to include your blog and a short bio that I can include.  I hope to have the link up and running in a few days.  You can email me at [email protected]

Please know that the Lord Jesus is MORE than able to provide for your adoptions.  I have seen it more times than I can remember. 

He IS faithful to provide.

October 22, 2010

life as usual

It's been a beautiful week.  Full to overflowing with God's richest and most amazing blessings...family

Our days have been busy.  And though the season of stretching feels neverending, we're continuing to press in and press on toward the finish line.  Some choose to make lemonade when life gives them lemons.  We, on the other hand, are choosing to put our hope and trust in the only One who can calm the storm. 

In Christ alone we put our trust.

Ten days have passed since Hailee had Botox injected into her eyes to [hopefully] rectify her strabismus.  We were told that we should start to see a difference in just a few days.  We've been watching carefully.  Honestly, we don't know if it worked.  She still seems to be having trouble getting her eyes to align.  But maybe we're looking for all the wrong things.  We are certainly no experts in this area.  Our follow-up appointment is on November 4.  We'll see what the doctor says and make decisions then.

We are so looking forward to Hailee's appointment with the GI doctor in November.  Her swallowing and digestion issues are not improving.  It is painful watching her trying to eat.  Some days are definitely worse than others.  The food just will not go down--no matter how soft the food is.  And then there is still the question of whether or not she has celiac.  One test came back positive while the other was borderline.  The GI will run a full battery of tests.  Hopefully we can get answers to a lot of the questions we have about our sweetie pie.  It is so hard watching her struggle to eat.  She will literally leave food in her mouth for hours, not chewing the last bite from dinner.  Such is her tenacity to not chew and swallow.  Poor baby.

And how we long to see her finally move beyond the 19-pound mark where she seems to be stuck.  How sweet would that be?  To finally see her start growing would be wonderful.

Today we drove down south and spent time with dear friends.  I love Kristin and Lisa so much, and am so thankful for the many amazing woman God has brought into my life simply because I started a blog.  I never imagined my blogging journey would bless me with such beautiful friendships.  Many ladies started out as blog friends, and have since become friends in real life.  I am so thankful to the Lord that so many of you have opened your hearts to me and my family. 

I seriously think that Anthony and I are the last people on the face of the earth to have read Radical by David Platt.  Oh my goodness gracious.  If you have not read it, I urge you to do it.  Go and buy yourselves a copy and read it.  You will not be sorry.  It will change the way you see "church."  It will turn your world upside down.  Anthony and I cannot get through one paragraph without a "Yes" or an "Amen!"  We are absolutely loving it.  By far one of the best books we have read for a long time.

So this week it happened.  I looked at my little boy--and saw a big boy.  Oh my!  He is growing up so fast.  I wish they could stay little for longer.  Growing up seems to happen so fast theses days.  Many tell me they grow up before you even know it.  I'm beginning to see that now.  I'm starting to understand that their time in my home will be so short.  I just can't be one of those parents who count the days until their kids leave home.  I can't.  I love having them here with us.  My prayer is that I can learn to savor each and every moment I have with our children in our home. 

I am so very proud of our firstborn.  They say he looks like me, but I think he is all Daddy.  All our sons do. 



How I love being their Mommy. 

Tonight Harper took her first step alone.  How amazing is that?  Just one teeny little step--but the beginning of many more for sure.  Best we get ready; she is definitely going to keep us on our toes.  She is into everything.  And I mean everything.  Such a curious little honey love. 

What fun it is watching Hailee and Harper's relationship blossom.  We totally laugh because people think that Hailee is this tiny little fragile girl.  How wrong they are.  The girl is tough, I tell you.  The harder we play with her, the more she laughs.  The higher she gets tossed in the air, the more fun it is.  The more Harper plays on her back, the more she loves it.  They make me laugh.  I just love how the Father put them together.  They could not be more opposite if they tried.  They are so good for each other.



There are no words to describe how blessed we feel.  To parent our children is the greatest gift God could ever have given us.  Such an absolute joy...even when the days are long and tiring, even when I fall into bed completely exhausted, even when the going is tough, even it feels like I have to repeat myself fifty thousand times, even when I question our ability to parent, even when I feel like all I ever do is prepare meals, even when they are not as behaved as we would love, even when my patience runs out.

Praying you all have a beautiful weekend.  May the Lord Jesus be your shelter, your strength, and your shield.  Nothing is impossible for Him.

Nothing at all!


October 19, 2010

it's giveaway time

Recently I was contacted by CSN stores.  They asked me if I would be interested in hosting a giveaway from one of their stores.  Umm...let me think about it...yes!  Who wouldn't be interested in a gift certificate toward something new?  Maybe one of the many contemporary coffee tables, or a new piece of fitness equipment.  Or perhaps a new pair of boots for the upcoming cooler months.  CSN Stores have over 200 online stores where you are sure to find everything your heart desires.

Just in time for the holidays.

I went looking around and found a little wishlist for Christmas.

These are a few of my favorite things...

A sweet little teakettle...because I love bright green, and have never had one of these handy little things.  It comes in a bunch of  fabulous colors.


How cute is this desk?  I need seven of them...and a school room please.


Oh my word, who doesn't love a pink pair of Mary Janes on little girls? Adorable.


A fondue set...just because.


Definitely on my wishlist.  Love them!  Must be the country girl in me.



The lovely people at csn.com are offering one of you a $45 gift certificate to choose anything you like.  It is good to use in any one of their 200+ online stores.  Perhaps something special for Christmas for someone you love?  Or a lovely little something just for you? 

Sweet, huh?

I think so. 

All you have to do is leave a comment.  Easy as that. You have until midnight this Sunday to enter.  I'll announce the winner next Monday.

I love that one of you will be blessed.

***  Sorry overseas friends, but this is open to USA and Canadian readers only as per CSN stores.

October 18, 2010

today....

I got totally BLESSED!

I got to spend precious time with one of my dearest friends in the whole world.  Janine and I live on opposite ends of the world (she is also South African).  It's just one of those relationships that is not affected by the miles that separate us.  When we're together, it's like we were never apart.  I love how God does that.  I love how He knits hearts together...forever.

Me and Jan in the middle, with her beautiful sister and precious Mom.



What a special treat God gave me today.  I miss my home country something awful.  I long for my family and close friends.  And even though we know that we are where God wants us to be, we miss relationships. That part never gets easier, no matter how long we are away. But God has been so gracious and kind to me.  He always ensures that I get to see those I love fairly regularly.  How He cares about the things near and dear to my heart.

Saying goodbye again was so hard.  Knowing that Jan is going to back to where my beloved family is, well, it just hurts. Goodbyes are never easy, are they?  I am so very thankful for the day, the memories, and the blessing that one of my best friends got to meet three of our children she has never met.  Such joy.

Thank you, Lord Jesus, for the beautiful gift of friendships.  My heart is overflowing tonight.

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I think it's time for a fabulous giveaway!  Yes?  Come back tomorrow.  I have a fun treat for one of you.

Be blessed in ALL you do, friends. 


October 17, 2010

embracing the season

It's a known fact.  We hear it often these days.  Times are tough.  For many of God's children, times are hard.  We look around and see difficulties everywhere.  Job loss, financial strain, family struggles, debt, burdens of all kinds...you name it.  Times are just, well, tough. 

We're in the same boat.  We're walking through one of the hardest times we have ever endured in our thirteen-year marriage.  It's been a season of stretching us more than we have ever been stretched.  A season of forcing us to rely on our Savior.  That's a good thing.  When everything else feels so fragile and vulnerable, we know with absolute certainty that Christ IS the solid rock on which we stand. We know that He and He alone is our firm foundation--the ONE who can never be shaken.

One thing we have learned is that our faith in Jesus Christ does NOT give us a ticket to the easy ride.  Jesus never came to promise us a life of smooth sailing, one where the storms would never come.  On the contrary, He warned us that the trials would come.   Christians are not immune.  The difference is that we have such hope, where others give in to hopelessness.

In the midst of trying times, God has been so good to pour out His blessings and His provision in our lives.  The blessings have come in the form of friendships old and new, food, gifts, notes of encouragement, words of wisdom...and vacations.

When incredible friends offered their vacation home for a little getaway, we had no idea what to expect.  "Vacation home" where I grew up was a tiny little shack along the rugged South African coast with no inside toilet, furniture from the Boer War era, a tiny gas stove, generated electricity and nothing but the absolute essentials.  Sounds like a whole lot of fun, huh? 

So we packed up the kids, took along enough food for the duration of our stay, and headed out on our little mini-vacation.  The kids were so very excited.

Oh my!  Were we in for a treat.  We had no idea this part of Virginia even existed.  Our drive took us up into the gorgeous Blue Ridge mountains--a little piece of heaven.  There we found the most stunning home with a spectacular view.

We rested.  And I mean rested.  For the first time in months, Anthony and I put up our feet and did as little as possible.  It was simply glorious.  Just what we needed.

We did take beautiful hikes along trails that led us to stunning little spots.



Our views were simply breathtaking.  Who can deny the existence of a Creator who did this just for our pleasure?  Oh how He loves us.



We got to spend precious moments with the blessings the Lord has so graciously given us. 



Just being together in His creation.  How we have missed times like this.  Moments that give us the opportunity to get out of the crazy inner city and just be where life is quieter.



The house was so much more than we could ever have asked for.  Harper gained the confidence to climb stairs that were carpeted.  She is doing so well at it now.



How do the leaves know that they HAVE to change their colors around this time?  Never too early, never too late.

Only God!



We enjoyed sunsets that took our breath away. 



And nature so magnificent, so captivating.



Where sweet little sisters had the best time exploring together...and loving each other.



It was a time to rejuvenate and allow God to fill us back up again--ready to, once again, run this race with perseverance.



Little lovies went on their first hike in the woods.



And bigger lovies went in search of colorful leaves for mommy.



In three days we saw the color of the leaves change before our very eyes.  From green to glorious shades of orange, yellow and red...just like that.  It was there that the Father whispered to my heart that change comes quickly.  No season ever stays the same for very long.  The hard times pass and new beginnings come before we know it.  It's just life. 

And so we're learning to embrace the seasons--good or uncomfortable.  We know that the hard seasons do not last forever.  God is always faithful to rescue us out of them.  He is always good to get us back onto the mountain top.  The valleys are such an amazing opportunity to learn deep truths and incredible lessons He wants us to learn.  I long to learn the lessons the first time, for I know that if I fail, I will only have to learn them again down the road.

Embracing the season and the things God allows us to go through.

As Charles Swindoll once said...

 "Nothing comes to us without it first passing through the hands of a loving Father."  

Isn't that the truth?

October 16, 2010

the joy of the LORD

Satisfy us in the morning with your unfailing love, that we may sing for joy and be glad all our days.
Psalm 90:14


October 15, 2010

blossoming, bath-loving, beauties

Who, once upon a time, hated the bath.




How things have changed.



These days, we cannot get them out.



Bath time is so much fun. 



Can't you tell?



Oh, the joy they bring us.



There truly are no words to describe it.  Right, Einstein?



They make me smile from ear to ear.

Aren't they just completely edible? 

God knew, before the beginning of time, that these two needed to be together. He knew that they would need each other.  Every day we're seeing that more and more.  Watching their relationship blossom is a beautiful thing.

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I wanted to bring your attention to two families who so urgently need our help to bring their children home.  These families are in a major time crunch, and need funds urgently--like yesterday.  Please hop on over to their blogs, read their stories, and prayerfully consider helping out. 

Remember the iPad giveaway for Julia?  The Applin family won it.  Well, they are using it for a fundraiser they are having for their own adoption of two precious little angels from Russia.  Their adoption has been long and crazy, but there is light at the end of the tunnel for them.  They still need an enormous amount of money though. There is still time to chip-in for the iPad. The drawing will be tomorrow.  Please consider helping out.

The Dziagwa family are leaving for Eastern Europe in just 9 days.  Oh my goodness, friends, they are still short a crazy amount of money.  Nothing for the Lord, right?  They have some pretty fabulous fundraisers happening.  Please pray about playing a part in the rescue of their two daughters who have special needs.  They desperately need medical attention.

I appreciate your help so much, and I know they do too.

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That's it for now. 

Yikes, I almost forgot to tell you.  Hailee's eye surgery went fabulously well.  If it was successful (60% chance), we should start seeing a difference pretty soon.  If not, she will have to have surgery again.  Obviously we're praying it worked.  If it did, it will change her life.  No more strabismus.

Yipeeeeee....it's Friday.  Major house cleaning on the cards for the weekend.  Nothing too yipeeeeee about that.  Time to clean closets and sort out winter clothes.  I love my little historic row house.  I really do.  But oh my word--what did people do for storage in 1900? 

Oh, that's right, they only had two dresses--one to wash and one to wear.  How times have changed. We have way too much stuff!


October 14, 2010

introducing...

Okay, okay...so I know you're all just dying (well, not really, but you know what I mean) to know who they are.  Who in the world has God chosen to be Julia's family?

I am beyond thrilled to introduce you all to the Schwenzer family. 

Steve, Carey, and their four (soon to be five) beautiful children.


They have a blog up and running. So I'll let them tell you all about who they are and how they got here. Go here to read their story and follow along as they work hard to get to their darling angel as fast as humanly possible.  God is already moving mountains on their behalf. 
 
What a blessing it has been for me to get to know the Schwenzers over the last couple of weeks.  Such a joy.

Please go over to their blog and follow along.  I know that they would be blessed by any sweet words of encouragement too.

And also, please keep sweet Julia in your prayers in the weeks and months to come.  Please trust with us that God will continue to sustain her in that awful place--until her mommy and daddy can get to her.  For this little treasure girl, every day counts.

You guys totally rock!

October 12, 2010

it's true.....

YES!

IT'S TRUE........


IT REALLY, REALLY IS TRUE!



YULIA HAS A FAMILY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


So totally amazing!!!!!

I have been biting my tongue to NOT spill the beans here on my blog.   Oh man, it has been a hard secret to keep for the last few days.  But I promised that I would not say a word until it could be public knowledge. 

Yulia is coming home!!!

What an incredible journey this has been for me.  I get tearful just thinking about it.  I weep when I think about how God has used over three hundred of YOU to help bring this little girl home.  Without the $20,000.00 grant it would have been extremely difficult for her family to adopt her.  So many of you have played a part in Yulia's rescue...it truly is because you opened your hearts to her that she is finally able to have a family she can call her own.  This has been such a testimony of the glorious Church coming together to answer the call and help meet a need.

I am humbled and amazed at how BIG our God is.  There truly is no one like Him!

So, who are they?  I know you're all wanting to know.

They're amazing.  I know that I know that God has chosen the perfect family for sweet Julia (her new name).  I hope to be able to introduce you to them really soon--when their blog is up and running.  They already have four beautiful kiddos at home--so precious little Julia will be coming home to a house full to overflowing with love and cuddles.  And just to prove that God cares so deeply about every little dream, care and desire of our hearts--He made sure that I would only have to drive about ONE HOUR to visit her!!!

How amazing is that?

But you know what the most wonderful thing is?  They absolutely ADORE this little girl.  Unconditionally.  They love her with a passion and are working so hard to gather paperwork for this adoption.  They are doing everything humanly possible to get to her as fast as possible.  Many people showed an interest in adopting Julia---but God is sending the ONE He has chosen. They love, love, love their little girl waiting on the other side of the world.  They don't care if they have one year, or ten, with her.  They only know that she is theirs, and their answer to the Lord was YES.

Oh my goodness gracious.  My heart is overflowing with thankfulness. 

I promise I'll share more as things unfold in the next few days.  For now, please join me in thanking God for the miracle that Julia so desperately needed. 

To Him, and Him alone, be the glory!

Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever!      Ephesians 3:19-20

Is anything impossible for the Lord God Almighty?

October 11, 2010

we escaped

Oh me oh my.  Four days without a post.  Yikes. 

We got out of the inner city for a few days.  And it was simply glorious.

We escaped to the mountains.  A total last minute thing.  It was beyond stunning to get away as a family--something we hardly ever get to do. 

No internet.  Hardly any phone reception.  No car (because it broke down on the way there).  Yup, we were forced to relax and do as little as possible.  It was just what we needed.

I'll be back tomorrow with news, happenings and some totally stunning pictures taken by my one and only.  It's going to be a busy week...starting with Hailee's eye surgery in the morning.


I can't wait to catch up here on my blog.  I finally have permission to share some very amazing news with you all.  I'm busy working on a post.

Blessing the name of the Lord. 

Love and hugs to all of you.

October 7, 2010

the big catch up post

Okay, so you guys are too sweet.  I loved reading all you lovely comments today.  Oh man...I hate to be the bearer of bad news...but you are going to have to wait just a tad longer.  I promise that as soon as I am able, the cat will be let out of the bag.  I am so excited to share some wonderful news with you all.  But not just yet. I wish I could...but I can't yet.  Darn it.

Nothing like a bit of suspense though, huh?

So instead of sharing some majorly exciting news with you, as I was hoping I would be able too, I figured I would give you all a good old catch up on life, love, and daily happenings around here.  Yeah, I know, very gripping stuff.

After almost two months of dragging, I feel like we are finally getting back into some kind of normal homeschooling routine.  Kinda sort of.  Oh my goodness gracious, but it has been so hard getting back into routine after more than four months of no school.  Just getting up at a reasonable hour in the morning has taken some major discipline for me.  Slacker.

But here we are, having a blast again. 

We have been studying the Egyptians.  Very interesting--even for me.  I can tell you that I am so thrilled that God chose to allow me to live in such a time as this, not that. And my children wholeheartedly agreed when they read that Egyptian kids wore next to nothing each day...and that public bath thing they had back then, well, let's just say that our teeny, tiny little row house all of a sudden feels like a mansion to them.  Nothing like having the Egyptians to teach us a lesson or two in thankfulness.

This week we made pyramids with spaghetti and gum drops.

My kind of experiment.  Easy as pie.  Minimal mess.  No fuss.  Bring it on.



The kids loved it and ate way more gum drops than was necessary.  Of course.



How I just love my sweet students.



Our curriculum is working out well.  So far, so good.  Except for one thing.  My kids are so not into the Language Arts curriculum I chose.  It's computer based and they find it so tedious.  Problem is that I am stumped as to what to try next.  Help me out here you homeschooling mamas.  Can anyone recommend a fabulous LA curriculum?  I'd love some advice.

Wow....so many of you commented on this photo in my last post.



Isn't she just darling?

Yes, Hailee is standing.  She is pulling herself up to hold onto the coffee table, which is so fantastic.  Still not standing alone, although she will try and manage to stay upright for just a few seconds at a time.  The fact that she is trying is just so amazing.  Each little step forward in her development is such a sweet victory.  We rejoice.  I was actually looking through some pictures of my time in the Ukraine the other day and I could not believe how much Hailee has changed in not even five months. 

Her transformation leaves us speechless.

Does this even look like the same child?



I look at Hailee and am constantly reminded that there is hope for each and every child.  Even children like her--written off, locked away and completely forgotten about.  It amazes me what LOVE can do. 

While she is doing so very well, we are still concerned that she is not growing.  At all.  At a recent doctors appointment she still weighed in at 19 pounds.  How can an almost five and a half year old possibly weigh 19 pounds?  So not right. She seems to be stuck at that weight and will not budge off it, no matter how much we feed her. 

There does seem to be some light at the end of the tunnel though.  There is a strong possibility that Hailee may have Celiac Disease, as so many of you suggested in this post.  One test has come back positive, and the other was ify.  So it's on to the GI doctor we go in a few weeks time for more extensive testing.  It's a quite a thing.  Part of me is praying that she does not have Celiac--all the diet changes for one family member will take some major adjusting.  But then there is another part of me that will be relieved to finally find out exactly why Hailee is not growing.  Whatever happens, I know God's already got it all taken care of, and that is good enough for me.

This coming Tuesday will be Hailee's much anticipated eye surgery.  The one where they are injecting Botox into her eyes to hopefully fix her horrible strabismus.  We're obviously praying it works the first time, or else she will have to have it redone.  It's heartbreaking watching her struggle day in and day out to get her eyes to align.  Poor baby.  We would so appreciate your prayers for a successful surgery on Tuesday. 

The Sure Steps that Hailee and Harper are wearing on their feet have been incredible.  Harper in particular has very low muscle tone (we call her our little jellyfish).  The braces have given her so much more support.  She is even standing for up to a minute on her own, completely unsupported.  Both girls have begun physical therapy to help them get more mobile.  Mmmmm....I have a feeling Miss Harper is going to keep us all on our toes once she finds her legs.  Watch out world!  She is so curious and even on the floor she gets into everything.  She is going to keep us all running.

One thing we learned super fast about Harper is that this girl is really smart.  She is like a little sponge.  She imitates so much of what we do and even tries to make the sounds we make.  You can almost see her brain ticking over as she tries new things daily.

She has recently decided that peek-a-boo is her best game ever.



She loves, loves, loves music and is the little singer in the family. Her name suits her perfectly. It's the sweetest sound to listen too.  She is learning sign language and is even starting to show us the sign for more when she wants more food.  Which is very often, I'll have you know.  The girl loves her food.  She thinks that American food is quite alright, thank you very much.  I have no doubt that Harper is going to learn, grow, and become so much in her life.  She'll let her disability shine!

Goodness, we are so blessed to have these gorgeous little treasures in our lives.  Yes, I do agree with what so many of you commented here.  It is tiring having children who struggle in life.  Most days I totally fall into my bed at the end of the day.  BUT....I honestly don't give the weariness much thought.  For me, even when I had one [typically developing] child I was beat at the end of the day.  Having Hailee and Harper has absolutely not made my life more busy or more tiring.  We just do it.  We try to live one day at a time and and savor their sweetness in that day.  Some days we fail miserably, others we get it right.

And about what will happen to them in their futures...truthfully, I can't allow myself to think too far ahead.  I can't.  I don't know what will happen to them when they are adults.  I don't know who will care for them when God calls me home.  I have no idea what their futures look like.  But I am positive of one thing---it is not my concern.  I believe in a God who does all things well.  I know HE holds their futures in HIS hands.  And I know He will reveal things to us as we journey along.  As much as I would love to have my life, and my families lives, all planned out for the next twenty or thirty years, I cannot do that. I cannot let my plans get in the way of God's more wonderful plans. His Word commands me NOT to worry about tomorrow.  If He cares for the sparrow, He can care for me and my family too.  Loving my children to the best of my ability is my only concern for today.  God can worry about tomorrow on my behalf.  It's just too stressful to try and figure it all out.

That is how we live our lives.  Sometimes we just have to get out of God's way and allow HIM to lead and guide us.  My human flesh gets in the way too darn often.

Less of me and more of Him.  That's what I desire above all else.

I did also have to laugh about my little "birds and bees" expression in my last post.  After one of you mentioned it I remembered that here in the US it usually refers to "the talk" that we have to have with our kids at some point (gotta love that).  Too funny.  No, Anthony was absolutely not having "the talk" with a stranger.  Sometimes I forget where I live and what expressions I should, or should not, use.  I am often putting my foot in my mouth here in my blog.  Like when I wrote "flip", which is kind of like saying "Oh heck" or "Oh my goodness" in South Africa.  One reader thought I was being positively rude for using such a terribly bad word.  Oh dear.  I momentarily forgot that saying, "Flip, but I love chocolate," is probably not the best way to say it in this country.  I totally laughed.

Or how about when I wrote a post about how my kids presented me with large amounts of "pee" in the bed one morning?  I was told that "pee" is offensive and that "wee" would be a far more suitable choice of word on my Christian blog.  Seriously, I kid you not. Who in the world knew? Clearly not me. The only difference to me is that one starts with a 'p' and the other with a 'w'.

Yup, sometimes I forget that a word can be perfectly acceptable in one country, and horribly offensive in another.  Can't please 'em all, huh?  I gave up trying a long time ago. Actually, I think people just need to lighten up a little and stop finding offense in every little thing.  There are far more important things in life to focus on, in my little opinion.

Anyway.

Time to say night night. 

Be blessed in ALL you do, friends.  Jesus Christ is alive and well and more than able to carry our burdens and lighten our loads.  Times are so tough, but He is the same yesterday, today and forever! He never changes. There truly is no one like our God.

October 6, 2010

amazing, wonderful, awesome!

Today has been all those things.

The LORD answered a prayer.  A HUGE prayer.  One we have trusted Him with for months.

Today He came through.  Just as we knew He would.

It is simply glorious.  Even better than I expected (me and my puny faith).

I can hardly wait to share with you--because I just know how happy all of you are going to be too.  Trust me.

But I must make you wait--just a little while.

Hopefully tomorrow I can share all the details.

{smile}

God of wonders.  God of miracles.  God who works out ALL things to the good of those who love Him.

Rejoicing.

I LOVE it when God comes through for His people.

{smile some more}

Yipeeeee Jesus!




October 4, 2010

if only they knew

You want to know what breaks my heart? Well, there really are many things that make me weep. But these days, as we are the new parents of two little girls who have Down syndrome, something seems to come up more frequently than ever. Something we have had a taste of with Hannah-Claire and Haven, but nowhere near as much as we do now.

It's called reactions.

It's in our faces a lot.

While out and about the other day, Anthony got talking to a stranger. They spoke about the birds and the bees, and many other things. Then the man asked Anthony about his children. Anthony proudly told him he was a Daddy to seven children--three biological and four through adoption.  At some point in the conversation he said it, "Two of our girls have Down syndrome."

Yup, that usually does it.

The man's response?

"Oh, I am SO sorry!"

Huh?  Say what?

I would love to tell you that it is an isolated case--just a man not being very tactful.  But, sadly, it happens often.  We get reactions.

We know they mean no harm--they just don't know.

They don't know what a BLESSING these precious little ones are. 

I am too quick to point my finger at other countries and think about how quickly they right off children who have special needs.  So often I think about my children's birth countries and remember all I have been told about what little worth and value people with disabilities have in those places.

But you know what?  I am learning fast that we are not so different after all.  I'm learning that even in this, a first world country, disability is so often looked upon as "hard work", "an effort", "not for most people", "tiring", and so on.  A burden.



If only the whole world knew!



If only they knew what priceless treasures from heaven these special children are. 

If only they knew that every therapy, every extra mile we have to go, every additional little help they may need along the way...like their little feet braces, which are working fabulously I'll have you know...



They are so absolutely worth it! There is nothing we would not do for our children.

If only they knew what sweet little personalities they have.



And how raising a child with Down syndrome really is no different to raising any other child, in our experience. They share the same giggles, the same joys, they try hard to reach the same milestones....they just take a little bit longer to get there.

And that is perfectly okay.  Slow and steady wins the race around here.  We go at their pace, not our one hundred mile an hour pace.



If only they could come and spend one day in my home and experience the love that just bubbles over from these angels--the incredible JOY that they bring.

I wish they could look into their sweet almond eyes--and see the things that we see.



Oh how my heart breaks when people say we are these "special people" for bringing them home.  Yeah, like whatever.  Are you kidding me?  WE ARE NOT SPECIAL!  They tell us, "We could never do it."  I tell them, "If I can, anyone can."  It's the truth.  I am a flawed human being who has as many bad days as good days.  I mess up all the time and have to get back on track.  I am nothing without my Savior.

It does NOT take a "special person" to parent a child with any kind of special need.  It only takes a person who can love. If we give birth to biological children who have needs, God equips us.  The same goes for adoption.  He equips us.  It's as easy as that.

If only they knew.

Harper agrees.



Sorry?

For what?

For the fact that we have the indescribable blessing of waking up each and every morning to the delightful squeals that greet us as soon as we walk into their bedroom?

Sorry that our arms are never empty?

Sorry that we are loved by these two little girls more than words can say?

Sorry that we have the honor and privilege of watching them achieve new things?

Sorry that we count it a blessing that our nest will never be empty.

Sorry for the joy that they have brought into our home?



And then I remind myself that I used to be the same way---people just do not know.

If only they did.
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