rising up

Those of you who have adopted before will know the fact that there is a golden rule for those of us who blog publicly, advocate for children, or even for adoption agencies--we have to let our words be few.  We have to use extreme caution when it comes to the things that go out into the world from places like this, my little blog.Here I am, holding back, and it is hard for me. I'm … [Read more...]

no words necessary

We're holding on tightly and we're never letting go.Hailee needs out, friends.  Desperately. Trust me--she does. I cannot say more on a public blog.I so appreciate each and every one of you journeying with me. It is such a comfort to know that the people of a Mighty God are praying. I cannot even begin to tell you how much it means to me at this time.PLEASE continue to pray … [Read more...]

reality

I have realized something about myself since I have been on this journey here in a far away land.  I am NOT a strong person.  At all! I did used to think that I had a certain amount of strength.  But not anymore. I am as weak as they come. There are some things in this life that are, quite frankly, just too darn painful. Things that make me beg the Lord Jesus to hurry … [Read more...]

every child

Deserves the loving arms of a mommy to hold them tight when they're feeling sick. Every single child!I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you.John 14:18Our sweet Hailee is feeling nasty.  My heart breaks for her.  There is absolutely nothing I can do for her, but pray.  I am longing for the day I can finally take them out of that place. Longing with all my … [Read more...]

rolling along

The last couple of days have been so glorious.  The warmer weather has been such a blessing compared to the overcast days we have had.  I am so ready for summer I cannot even tell you.  Something about being in the sun just makes me feel a whole lot better.The caretakers know me now.  On any slightly warmer days we go outside, just me and my babes.  It's quite an ordeal to … [Read more...]

catching up

It's a sad day in the adoption community.  When a program as large as Russia suspends all adoptions, oh my goodness, there are no words. My heart aches for the families...and the thousands of children who wait in that country. This is so horrible. So many lives are going to be affected. The whole situation is completely outrageous. Oh Lord Jesus. As this announcement sends … [Read more...]

we almost missed out

Some days I feel like I am part of a really crazy reality show.  You know, the kind of show where cameras follow an adoptive mom around, filming her every move.  Will she hang in?  Will she give up?  Will she walk away from her children? Just how is she going to handle this? Is she loving her children well?  Will the orphanage staff finally start … [Read more...]

ups and downs

Today has certainly been one of those days.  You know the ones--where you have probably experienced every emotion ever known to man.  That's me!First, let me start with the special part about today.  It's my firstborn's birthday.  Eleven years ago today Anthony and I discovered the joy of parenthood.  It was a day that changed our lives forever. Before this boy was … [Read more...]